I’m ready!

Total transparency: I love reading her posts, but I’d just as soon as she came home now. 🙂

When we were getting ready for Caitlin to leave, I was like, “I’m going to record a million videos!” To her credit she was not immediately irritated that I was blaming her for my lack of videos lately, instead she said something supportive like, “Oh, you like that!”

I am NOT blaming her for my lack of videos, but you know, since she’s on summer break, she’s…around! During the school year, I’m sitting in my office, doing my things, and if I have a break, I might doodle around and end up making a video. Or at least thinking about one. But when she’s on break, I’d rather come out and see what she’s up to. We like to eat lunch together, even though we eat very different meals. We like to walk the Maite together, or get in the hot tub. It’s not like I’m not working, or getting work done, but the very real space and energy that goes into writing/creating something isn’t happening. Even writing this and my other post – I think in part that is happening because she isn’t here. Which is a little sad but also worth knowing.

ANYway, y’all will not be surprised to learn that I did NOT, in fact, record a million videos. Or even one. A friend of mine predicted this, saying that when her family left 2 days before her on a trip, she also thought she would get a lot done. Instead, she spent her time sort of spacing out, wandering around the house (not the whole time, obviously). I was like, No, that won’t happen to me. Because I’m humble.

Then leaving choir rehearsal (which can I just say I was SOOOO tired after a migraine today and spending too much time in traffic, I still went because it’s so fun to sing with people again!) I really wanted to debrief with Caitlin. Only she wasn’t there. So I decided I’d send her a schedule-sent Signal when I got home. Then I pulled into the garage and checked to see if she had been online recently. I didn’t really expect it given the time difference and ALL THAT WORK she is doing, but I checked anyway. While I was checking, I momentarily forgot she was gone (I know, I know, that seems ludicrious, but I am telling the honest truth) and thought, I better get upstairs because she and Maite are waiting for me… then remembered that Caitlin is gone.

Yeah, I’m ready for her to be home.